An accident of residence

You could see it from the street between the houses when you walked or were driving along Carson Road.  It was built on the back side of the alley.  It was about a quarter-mile long, or so, running north from Vernon elementary school where it started, south to a wooded area next to a small farm.  I think it was a farm. I remember cows grazing in a big yard so that’s what it was in my mind. The field and fence all met up where the alley stopped at those woods where I would go get kindling for the fire when it was wash day – usually on a Saturday.  I hated those days with a passion.  I was the only “hard leg” busting my knuckles on a wash board washing my clothes (underwear, t-shirts and socks.) All my play buds had sisters, so they didn’t have to wash clothes. No woman’s work (that’s how it was thought of in those days) for them. So I had to take a lot of crap from them.  It was tough being the butt of jokes and put-downs. I couldn’t whip nobody (though I tried), and so it was what it was.

But I was smart as a whip.

It wasn’t a high fence – 6 feet or so. I was a little kid, nine or 10 at the time, so it towered over me. It was one of those chain linked Cyclone fences with the slanted square openings. Thinking about it now, I wonder why it didn’t have barbed wire on top of it. For some reason, I think the people who lived on the over side of that fence knew that there was no fear of us ever being crazy enough to climb over it. To be honest, it never even occurred to me. And I don’t ever remember my mom talking to me about that fence.  It was just there.  Something you just lived with, accepted.

Only White people lived on the other side of that fence.

We had moved to our apartment on Carson Road so my mother would be closer to work.  She had just got a job at a laundry/cleaning business. It might have been a mile or so walk for her when she didn’t catch a ride. She worked as a “shirt presser” operating 3-4 machines that steamed pressed the collar, sleeves – and the front and backs of the shirts. You had to be quick on your feet and fast with your hands so the shirts wouldn’t burn. The owner used to let me wait for her sometimes until quitting time and we would walk home together. She was his best shirt presser and every now and then he would let her do our laundry and press them. I was the only ten-year old on the block wearing professionally cleaned and laundered pants and shirts. It was another reason I kept getting my ass kicked.

Did I mention I was smart as a whip?

Carson Road was the main street (it was really a road with some parts of it paved) that twisted and turned through a small town named Kinloch.  It was an all-Black community when I lived there. It was an all-White city before that; in the 1920s and 30s – maybe even before then.  It bordered an airport and military base – Lambert Field – I think that was the name of it.  I used to love to watch from behind the fence (another one boxing us in) at the back of the runway when F-86 Sabre jets got ready to take off.  Blue-yellow fire mixed with flaming red gushing from the engine exhaust; those swept-back wings (looking like rockets headed to Mars in the Sci-FI books I read); gleaming and vibrating; and then whoosh – down the runway it would move – roaring, screaming, thundering and then lifting into the blue Missouri sky. I wanted to fly one of those suckers like nobody’s business.  But watching from the other side of that burnt-black fence was the closest I ever got to one. The closest any Black man ever got to flying an F-86 or any other fighter plane for another 20 years or so. I nearly got killed one day because I was so mesmerized by an F-86  that a man had to grab me and yank me out of the way of that deadly tail exhaust. For me, though, it would have been a glorious ending.  Burnt to a crisp because of idol-worshipping.

Lambert Field wasn’t too far away from where we lived at the time.  I could get their on my bike in 10-15 minutes or so.  It was our second apartment since we have moved from Indiana to be near family. To tell you the truth, I was sick and tired of living somewhere for a “hot minute” and being uprooted again.  But to be fair, my mom was always, always trying to put us (me really) in a better situation. Life was hard, difficult – bordering on drastic hell at times. There were no jobs in Kinloch. Going to work meant catching the one bus that came to town twice day. Or, paying a jitney cab by the week.  Kinloch, you see, was stuck out in the middle of nowhere at the time; surrounded by all-White cities and towns. You have heard their names blasted all over CNN recently. They have become famous (or infamous depending on your point of view) in the past year.  All enjoying (ha!) their fifteen minutes of fame, so to speak.

I will say this about the police in those days: what cop in his right mind uses 10-12 year old kids as target practice? Their behavior was actually worse than that; and I am still angry and embarrassed to the point of being unable to talk about it.

Anyway, the move to that apartment near Vernon elementary school turned out to have destiny written all over it; though my Mom, and certainly not me, knew it at the time.  Vernon was the proverbial 2-room school-house (it was really built of brick); a third section was under construction when I enrolled that fall.  For the next two years, I was a kid being a kid, a Black boy living in the Black town of Kinloch, Missouri. Then one spring day, it was all about practice and preparations for graduation. As valedictorian of my class (told you I was smart as a whip), I had to prepare a speech. At some point during those hectic weeks before he big day, the world of America shifted on its axis without us kids understanding what had happened: we (our parents and us) were told that we would not be attending the all-Black Kinloch high school across town once we graduated.

Our shock and awe would be putting it mildly.  I remember my Mom being in a state of controlled panic. The reason for this momentous decision, as it was explained to us, is that we lived in the wrong school district.  Wrong school district? How could that be?  We lived in a Black town. We were Black, everybody in town was Black. We attended a Black school. Needless to say, things got a little boisterous. After much wailing and gnashing of teeth, it was explained to us that because we all lived on the west side of Carson Road, we actually lived in Ferguson, Missouri. Surprise, surprise!

Yes, THAT Ferguson. The city that recently made headlines around the world.  It seems that narrow, less than a quarter-mile strip of land, separated by the “fence” at the back of the alley meant that we (I) had actually been living in the all-White city of Ferguson.  Ferguson, it seemed, wasn’t “lily White” after all.  Our ignorance was indeed bliss; or just plain ignorance. It didn’t matter. According to Mr. Johnson, the principal (not his real name), “we would be attending the all-White Ferguson High school in the fall come hell or high water,” or something to that effect. “The first to do so. We had to get ready. We had to be ready, it would not be easy,” he said.

No one knew what to expect.  All of us were about to make history by accident of residence.

We were nine before the storm.

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12 thoughts on “An accident of residence

  1. afairymind

    I bet you had some ‘interesting’ times at school. I can only imagine what it’s been like to live among such racial divide. Racial tensions in the UK nowadays (at least in my area of the country) tend to be less driven by colour, more by country of origin – though I’m sure there are people out there who look down on someone because of the colour of their skin. I’ve never quite understood it, myself and, like many others, watch the news reports from America with shock.
    I love your descriptions – especially of the aeroplanes. 🙂

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  2. Ad Dawg Post author

    Thank you for visiting. It’s quite difficult. It affects every aspect of one’s life. The hurt is profound. So glad to hear that things are better in your UK. They say about us that we always do the right thing. But only when everything else has been tried. We waste time and souls in the US.
    Would you believe that after years of flying, it is my least favorite method of traveling….lol

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  3. lbeth1950

    This is good writing. I am so glad to hear from someone in Ferguson. I am 64, white, raised in segregated North Louisiana in facial divide just like what is seen in Ferguson now.

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    1. Ad Dawg Post author

      Thank you so much for the nice comment, ibeth1950. Kinloch/Ferguson was much, much worse than that small glimpse. Life back then,for both of us, severely narrowed out world view. I am planning to post more about life there; strongly considering basing my memoir about my experiences in Kinloch/Ferguson.

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      1. lbeth1950

        I’ve thought about posting POV of my growth. I know you story is much bigger. I wonder if we could do a collaborative piece. I haven’t done civil rights work, but I have come from a totally racially segregated society to an working for acceptance,and love for all now. I welcome friends and relatives of races, religion, and sexual preferences into my home and life now. I have been married to the same man for 45 years and we have come a long way together. He didn’t learn until recently that his father who died in 1965 was one of two white men in our county who was a member of NAACP. I find that amazing. The black people of the community lined the road on the day of his funeral. That still brings me to tears.

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      2. Ad Dawg Post author

        That is an incredible story about your father-in-law; I thought of the courtroom scene at the end of the trial in “To Kill a Mockingbird.” I hope your husband is proud of that respect shown his father. It was all that those Black people had to give. If you get a moment, read “Can I get a little help?” It is one of the first pieces I posted to my blog. Your comment about hosting family & friends of all races, religion and sexual orientations struck a chord with me. My “True Blue” and I have been married for 52 years. Our three sons were raised to marry whomever they fell in love with. Our family is a regular United Nations: Black, White & Latino, and yes – Gay and Lesbian. No Asians, yet; perhaps our upcoming generations will rectify that situation.

        What type of collaborative piece did you have in mind?

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      3. lbeth1950

        Let me write a piece and send it to you. You can see if you want to answer. How old are you? I was born in 1950 in Cotton Valley, Louisiana. Will send you a link of something I already wrote along that line. I suspect we could reflect opposite experiences. I was poor white supremacist family, though not KKK as far as I know. My family regularly said the N-word except used colored to people’s faces.
        https://nutsrok.wordpress.com/2015/01/22/i-am-so-so-sorry-rosie/

        I wrote this piece some time back. Feel free to repost if you want. It tells a little about my experience. I wish I could find Rosie to apologize, but my mother didn’t even know her last name.

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  4. lbeth1950

    Didn’t finish above comment. I was raised racist but learned better when I made black friends in college. I’d never even known a black person before then, our neighborhood was so divided. I was so glad to see some change in Ferguson after local elections. Are you feeling change there yet?

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    1. Ad Dawg Post author

      I live in California now, ibeth1950. When the story broke, I broke. If you remember my note of the police and target practice, I was consumed with what was happening to my home town. Super glad the story finally came out. College seemed to be where transformations take place…that’s a good thing. Really happy that you now feel and think differently. Your story reminds me of three former college associates (all became pretty good friends). There were less than a dozen Black students on my campus; but only 5 Americans. Church outreach recruited the others from the Jamaica and Africa. Until we came on campus, they were tasked to speak for a country they knew nothing about. Many late night discussions ensued with Norman, Sally and Mary (not their real names) dispelling myths, etc. Well worth it, though. I will be in contact with my relatives still in Ferguson for updates. Will try and keep you posted. Thanks again for the follow and kind words.

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      1. lbeth1950

        Hope things go well in Ferguson and elsewhere. It looks like people are finally seeing the murderous situation black men are facing.. God be with us all

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